In the beginning, when you start on your chosen path, it is only because of those who believe in you and your vision that you survive. Because of them, you GET A CHANCE to keep learning; a chance to keep your dream alive. Without these people in your life, our support system, we are no-one and we can go nowhere.
And though I am not a big fan of looking at the images and projects I have shot in the past, I realise the importance of doing so. When I see those images, I can only see all the things I could’ve done better - the composition, light, time of day, edits, and so many more things, if not all. I tend to only see my mistakes. But I am trying to change my perspective because its important to remember that I did the best I could with what I knew and to forgive myself for what I didn’t know in the past. For someone who has unattainable expectations of herself, this is incredibly difficult to do, but something I am working on. If i’m seeing mistakes made in the past, it must mean that I know more now, and I want to find solace in that.
My hope is this - that when I see the images of the past, instead of seeing and only focusing my mistakes, I can shift my focus on to the faith that my clients put in me, on my vision being worth of their faith, on the opportunities that I’ve been given in this process and and being grateful for all of it.